Singleness

Today, while going out to an early dinner with 2 female classmates, I got trapped in a conversation about dating. I honestly did not say a word. The 2 girls talked about the guys they were dating, those they have dated, and their frustrations with the opposite sex. Interestingly enough, they didn't ask me about my love life, or lack thereof... Actually, wait, I was asked one question, and that was: "have you ever kissed a guy who had a girlfriend." And of course, I answered truthfully

I am a proud, independent single woman. I enjoy my own company, which is a good thing for anyone. I don't long for a relationship or a dating life because I've never had one. You might be surprised to find out just how much of a prude I am. I won't go into details. I have liked guys, guys have liked me, but the feelings have never been mutual. I have had my heart broken. I didn't like it one bit. That is one major reason why dating and all that other crap does not appeal to me. I don't want to experience those same feelings again.

When I hear stories of disappointing relationships, it makes me love the single life even more. I am in a good place :)

What I don't understand is why some people feel down in the dumps when they are single. The single life is meant for learning new things, enjoying freedom and flirting! Have fun people!!

But I will admit: someday I would like to know what it is like to have a boyfriend. It would be nice to have a guy around to take me out for a nice juicy steak or some fondue

To the LOML Joe Jonas

Dear Joe:

You're perfect for me, but I realize that it may not ever it work out for our paths to cross. Someday I hope they will though, even if it's 10 years down the road at a Grammys after party. I will never forget you, even if I find myself under Tommy Lee. I don't think I can live my life like this, depressed because you're dating Demi. I just have this feeling that you two will be together forever. It sucks because you are perfect for me, we just live completely different lives right now. I won't forget your kindness, personality, sense of humor, style, longer locks, pancake twitter default, and that one time at the Denver show this past summer when u pointed at me during "Much Better" (everything I'd ever need is the girl in front me). See, I'm everything you'd ever need... I hope life continues to give you everything you'd ever need and more. And I also hope that if we do see each other at a grammys party, in the studio or on the street, that you would smile at me. I'll never forget the summer that you and your brothers opened up a new world of music for me, music that someone my age shouldn't listen to. May God bless your future-- I pray that you don't fall off the deep end like other former teen idols

Love always,

Whitney

My celeb crushes

Ok, I dunno what it is, but "normal" (not famous) guys just don't really appeal to me anymore. My life is somewhat consumed by my celeb crushes. And my heart breaks each time I hear that one of them is dating someone. This might sound stupid, but it's the truth. Even though I haven't met the majority of these guys and there is no guarantee that I ever will, I just like them to be single. Part of me thinks that someday I might be apart of their lives...or at least part of the world they live in. Hence my majors film production and music business. I can only hope. Until next time, the world will keep spinning whether or not these gentlemen are single, with me, or dating whores, lol.

Me and the fact that I'm quitting my job

I did it, I finally did it! I gave my two weeks notice to my manager at jamba juice today, but I didn't do it the ordinary way. My work environment is pretty laid back, and my manager is the same way. He's also younger than me. So after a debate and the fact that I was too chicken to call, I gave him my notice via text. Yes, I realize that is very unprofessional. And I won't do it again, I swear. But I did it, and even though I don't have a job lined up right now, I'm glad I did. My departure is long overdue. I've been needing a job with more money/more hours for awhile now. As of right now, it's looking like my future may be in promotional modeling. And although I have been wanting to get into bartending, I'm not sure if seeking training/employment of that sort is a good idea right now because there is a slight chance I will be interning out of AZ this summer. Promotional modeling seems like easy work, I just have to work on the whole weight issue.

Maturity

Today has been an interesting one. I originally planned on posting a blog on the topic of maturity. I just decided to make a blog about a few different things.

I will start with maturity, or the lack there of in my life. Throughout elementary through high school, I considered myself to be more mature than most of my peers. 95% of the time I did the right thing. Recently, meaning in the past year or so, I've noticed a difference in my actions. I don't know what it is. Maybe it's the fact that I have developed a carefree attitude over the years? I feel like I'm behind a lot of kids my age in the maturity department. It's weird. For the longest time I was ahead, now I'm behind. I don't know how it happened. I'm apparently a rebel of some sort

2nd topic is about my job, and how my job performance has been somewhat affected by my maturity. I work at a jamba juice at arizona state u. I haven't been the biggest fan of it for quite awhile now. I don't get enough hours, the time goes by so slowly sometimes, I deal w/spoiled freshmen, and I have to take the light rail to work :( I've also begun to feel like my co-workers don't like me anymore. I realize I'm not the fastest, most efficient jamba juice smoothie maker, but I feel like I get the job done. However, sometimes I feel like I'm not up to par considering how long I've worked there. Adding up all the months I have worked at the same JJ equals over a year. Today while I was eating my lunch, I gotta text from my manager: "verbal warning: you can't just get up and leave." I took off today, 15 minutes early, without permission of my manager (he was on break or something). I left early because we were obviously overstaffed. Sadly, I didn't think twice about sending a text to my manager asking him if I could leave. Why?? I know better. What's gotten into me?

Ok, I've forgotten what else I was going to talk about, soo...I'm just gonna leave this post as it is